BlueSuburbia takes you to a spot that’s crammed with a lonely form of menace – an oppressive concern that crushes you because it tells you that nobody will come prevent.
CONTENT WARNING: Self hatred. However possibly I’m studying this fallacious?
It felt just like the eyes have been throughout me as I walked by means of this place. They peered from all corners. They peeked from the earth beneath my toes. One thing was all the time staring irrespective of the place I walked. In a spot so loaded with an amazing sense of imminent destruction – a world that may always collapse and reshape, crammed with uncertainty – they might simply watch me. Gawk away as I attempted to seek out someplace protected, however couldn’t. Not one in every of them appeared fascinated about serving to me, although. They’d simply stare as I ran, on the lookout for a way out of right here. It was like I used to be some type of leisure to them. That they simply needed to see me endure.
This sense made the remainder of the sport’s scary environment minimize all of the deeper. I attempted to flee from a spider that known as for me to return nearer, however the roads all appeared to guide again to it. I discover myself in countless halls crammed with pictures of self-loathing, and an internal thought course of that wishes me to hate myself. It guarantees some form of freedom in accepting that I deserve this hatred. That it ought to be my mantle or legacy, and that accepting it and being consumed by it’s the proper approach to work by means of it. Combating it feels exhausting, All roads lead again to the spider, like I mentioned a second in the past. So why stroll? The place do I count on to go?
I really feel like I’ve to strive. I really feel like I must proceed this stroll to know, even because it breaks my coronary heart and calls for to interrupt my soul together with it. BlueSuburbia is a crushing imaginative and prescient of despair, the bottomless worth you pay for being damage and daring to talk about it, your agonies being changed into ‘content material’, and extra. Saying I wish to spend extra time right here can be unfaithful. I’m afraid of this place. It hurts to face right here and hear. However I really feel that I’ve to see this by means of.
And there’s a spiteful hope by the tip of the demo that I’m greedy onto. A hope that I wish to roar so loud it shakes the Earth.
I’ve to see it by means of.
BlueSuburbia is at present in growth, however within the meantime, you’ll be able to seize a demo from itch.io.
